I wrote the following at bedok central's burger king... Spent a lot of time reading and eating there.

I'm inspired. Clearly he's struggled more than me. Clearly he put God first and clearly, I should as well... The thing is, I cannot just sit here and claim that God should provide for me like he did for brother Andrew... I've got to develop my own intimate relationship with Him... I've got to learn to obey and I've got to learn to be sensitive and listen.

You know about the big picture. You know that this isn't ignoring the problem. This is putting the problem in God's hands saying, "Here... Hold this for me while I do your work."

Which brings me to my next question... What exactly is my work? It started with the worship ministry. Playing drums. Its still is. Then came the youth camp where I was prayer head. Then came the mission trip, or rather 'exposure to the mission field in Chiang Mai'. There I contributed through acting in skits, doing percussion, prayer & worship, as well as manual labour.

The new year is here and I don't have any idea of what I'm supposed to do for 2004. Yes... I'm going to start a discipleship group with Andy for the CPC 1 guys. But is that all? What else do I need to learn or do to prepare myself for the work after Rhema? What else can be done to serve Him in this year? Playing for Ignite for Love Day? Acting in Seeker Service? Movie MagiXS?

Prayed for purpose & direction for 2004
3 February 2004
5:57pm

::: Lyric of the Day :::
Three sleepless nights
this isn't how it's supposed to be
but you're so good at taking your time
to give back to me